Sleepless Idle mind

Well, it was one of those nights when i could not sleep even as my better half's snoring tried so hard to rock me to sleep. In moments such as these i think of a lot of things & it's fascinating to observe how one thought leads to another and by the time you realize that you are conjuring up things way beyond your imagination, you might have reached some bizzare point. I thought of my mother, thought of my brother who was down with fever & then realized I was half way across the globe & thoughts were the only things that took me to them, this fast. May be there are a lot of people who would give everything to swap places with me. What exactly is life? When i was in school, everybody said the biggest thing in your life was your matriculation. Now after that was over, it seemed like getting into a professional course was to be the aim in life. After you pass out, it's a job that is most important, and then a marriage or promotion or an onsite trip or kids or whatever. At every point in your life, there is this something you need to achieve because others who were there before you have already done it. The focus shifts from time to time. It will be the same when i have kids & they go through the same grind, if not the exact same things. Ultimately, we all die & do we think of what is it that we did that others also did. Well, i dont think so. Probably we will think of our loved ones, regret something we should/should not have done. Memories and feelings make life or so i feel. you cannot possibly forget the way people made you feel, be it happiness or sorrow or anger. As i lay sleepless, i thought of my friend who lost his sister in an accident. Is there a greater sorrow than to lose a sibling ? May be there is but to imagine loss of someone who grew up with you, fought with you, cried with you, ate stolen candy with you, is something beyond my imagination. I saw a movie today which described your spouse as someone you meet in the journey of life. And it is just a way of life that you love each other because that is how it is meant to be. Your sibling is different or perhaps i think differently.To each, his own. Like some wise guy said, you can live without anybody in this whole world. It is just that we adjust ourselves to their absence. At the end of the day, no one can replace anyone else & it is unfair to try and recreate something you had with someone, with another person.